Bankrate: What revelation?
Danica McKellar:
I was so confused and trying so hard and just
flailing. I was still frozen in the belief system
that I couldn't do math. We had this quiz, and
I just looked at it and it didn't make sense.
There was nothing about it that looked familiar
to me. So I didn't write anything down. Finally,
the bell rang, and everyone was getting up, and
I didn't even move. I was so ashamed, terrified
and nauseous that I was seeing spots. I wanted
to pass out. And the teacher didn't ask me to
get up. She just sat at her desk and smiled at
me, like, "Yeah, you can keep working."
Everyone left, and I'm thinking,
"Is this fair? Why is she letting me do this?"
But at the same time, I felt that she believed
in me, that I could do it. Expectations play such
an important role in what kids can do, and I found
that I relaxed and looked at the test for the
first time as something I could do, because she
believed I could do it. After that, I started
to listen to what she was saying in the classroom,
and things slowly started to make sense. And,
I actually got some points on the test. I got
a C-, which is pretty remarkable since it had
been blank.
Bankrate: Were there any experiences on the set of "The Wonder Years" that drove home how girls are encouraged to reject their intelligence?
Danica McKellar: No, because I went
to an all-girls school at that time, and my experience
as a young actress on set was not the Hollywood
scene. My parents weren't into that and I didn't
have friends like that. School was more important.
My experience on set was, go to work, get into
hair and makeup, then go into the schoolroom and
do schoolwork. Then, when it's time to do your
scene, you do your scene, then you come back and
do more schoolwork. So my life as an actress was
actually very school-oriented.
Bankrate: When you were in college, did you think you'd wind up as an actress or a mathematician?
Danica McKellar: When I first got to college, my plan was to be a film major. Then, midway through, as I was falling in love with math, I seriously considered becoming a professional mathematician, which would mean getting a Ph.D., getting a professorship at some university, and doing research and teaching.
When I got the opportunity to co-author a research paper at UCLA as an undergrad, it gave me a chance to see what it would be like. I loved so many parts of it, it was challenging and stimulating, but as much as I loved it, I missed acting even more. That's my first love, and if you love acting, it's hard to leave it. That's why a lot of actors do theater, because that's acting in its purest sense.
I try and do a play at least once
a year, because while there's no money in it,
it fulfills your soul. So I went back to acting,
but realized that math would always be a hobby,
and wanted to do something with it. Then, as I
heard more and more people say, "What have you
been doing since "The Wonder Years?" and I'd say,
"I went to college to study math," and they said,
"MATH!?!?!? Oh my gosh! I can't do math," or,
"What's a pretty girl like you studying math for?"
It would make me furious. So that was the basis
of my becoming involved in math education -- realizing
that so many of my fans were afraid of math.
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